Saturday, November 27, 2010

Finally getting closure

Well. Ahem.
I'm done.
And I hate it when I am done. Cuz after that, I am completely clueless. I am lost. Bah!

I don't know of anyone else who has let go of people who love her tremendously so easily as I do. I can count Bhavika(my best friend of four years), Vineet(after a friendship of 8 years), Zain(after four years. Four amazing years), Nidhi(after the things we had been through, its amazing how we are apart), NIKITA(my baby).
It feels like closure. Finally.

But do I miss them? Yes. I miss the times we had together. I don't think anyone can have as much fun with people as I've had with them. I told you, these are the people who I let go. I don't know of people who wanted to get rid of me. But yes, these are the people with whom, love just eventually went away. So did friendship. All from my side.
Do I regret it? No. Cuz now I've come to realize that things don't last forever. And its best to let go than hold on for no reason. Yes, friendship, as deep as ours, then, is not a reason enough. Sadly. These friendships had a time period I guess. There are no messy fights. Just a realization that its time to make an exit.
I guess, now I am on the cross roads of the same thing. And I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can go back to the same thing.

But I never stopped caring.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Do I honestly care??
Yes! Sigh! Sad but true.

I weally weally wish that I didn't though. But it is human and young adult combined, I have to.

I wish I could write again. Without being so hesitant. Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Darn! I am Texan.
Oh! So! Random!

Couplet! My Heroic Couplet will save the world!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Note to self:

Get a life. Seriously. I am writing it here and not my journal because I have stopped paying attention to what I write in my journal. Sigh! I am writing it here also cuz, well, this is my part-rant blog.
Anyway, I am soo paranoid, its not funny. Bah! Maybe I should do yoga and relax. I have forgotten to enjoy myself alone! I mean, I used to crave alone time before but now, when I am getting it, I don't care. Bah! I am starting again. Yay!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Can't think of a Title

Somewhere, one day, far away, I will look back at this day, and think.
Somewhere, one day, far away, I will, like always, look ahead and think.
Somewhere, one day, far away, I will, like today, wonder why I don't live in the present.
Somewhere, one day, far away, I will, remember the day I learnt how to.
Here, today, now, I know, today is that day.